Rewind;

Always hated it when people lied but recently, I don't know if I've been lying to you or it's become the truth. What am I doing. ahahaha

anyway live here from america yo, so dope here man.
Had a xmas dinner with cousin's wife's family, and met some college kids who taught me some of their merican accent. was dope man.

okay lol bye

in such a ceebs mode, just wanna sleep all day to this view which is what I do haha
okay bye

Everything feels so unreal. Felt like I just lived a dream. And this is how the dream went.
Don't know when and where but I found the perfect guy. Everything was amazing, we went on the most fun dates, loved each other. It almost seemed like nothing could get in the way. The only difference between dreams and what really happened, is that rather than waking up in the middle of it, we said our last goodbyes and cried the tears of farewell. What matters though, either way, I wish I could keep sleeping to continue the dream.
Who knew that one day, I would come across those situations where you love each other, but can't be together because of life commitments or timing issues. Maybe we are growing up.
But head up and smile, nothing's wrong.

So sat on the plane for 9 hours, tired as hell. Should sleep.

So I found this on my other blog and I wanted to share it :)

There is one thing i learnt from all this though; memories are like scars. They may get fainted and change as you grow, but they're always going to be there. unforgiving and confronting.
And they matter so much that it is not the people that are important anymore, but the memories you have of them. so really, you're always left with nothing but yourself in a whelm of solitude.

Anyway goodnight folks x.

i watched perks of being a wallflower today and i cried. maybe cause it reminded me of a lot of things, or maybe cause im just a softie.

there's just too much going on. if I had one wish, I would just wish that we would both move on soon. not really pretend it never happened, but to grow from it. get over it and find someone or something else. we both got lifetime commitments, would be stupid to give yourself up for a fling.
I remember the days where I would sit there looking at the calendar going "man I wish these days past by quicker"
but now I hate it. I remember saying "oh don't worry we got heaps of time left". but weeks turned into days and hours turned into minutes. and it never gets better, it just gets harder to let go.

I don't think many people have this, but I have an attachment to numbers. born to be mathsbrah
but no really, like dates and things. Sometimes I look at my clock in the morning and theres that familiar number staring right back at me, and I think to myself wow, it's been a year since that happened already? what is this shit.

So anyway on a brighter note, I went to parra park today and walked for an hour or so in the drizzling rain by the side of the river. loljokes it wasn't romantic at all. it was wet as hell.

The birds were chirping as the sun began to disappear into the distant trees, the air was gradually cooling down and the gentle breeze calmed the mood. They sat at the park bench, just comfortable in each other's presence. Not hugging or cuddling, just seated quietly, happy to be with one another.
She turns to him and points at the bridge in the distance.
"Do you remember a coupla years back when we walked that bridge?"
"Yeah you were so scared, had to hold your hand."
"That's cause it was dark, we got lost, remember? Your phone ran outta batteries and then we lost track of the time."
"Yeah, back then when we didn't understand the concept of time."
A flock of birds flew across, their chirps crescendoing and then fading into the forest.
Then she turned to him again and said, "Do you understand it now?"

anyway have some photos cause everyone loves photos; my post hsc life thats not on fb haha