Rewind;

Well I put together two blog posts I wrote, which is prob fucking obvious where the split is

The fog sat gently on the oval like a thin blanket on a child, as the spotlights shone on it, making it illuminate in the darkness. The night was growing old and the morning was about to begin.
"What do you regret?" he asked.
They were strolling across the oval; the layer of mist looked artificial. She stared at her dirt-coated damp sneakers trodding through the grass covered in dew while she ambled with him, unaware of the general direction in which she was walking. She knew she'd be lost if he wasn't there, but nothing mattered at that moment.
"I regret wasting so much time."
She kept watching her feet rhythmically thumping the ground, but felt his gaze redirecting to her with an aura of slight inquisitiveness, yet concern.
Finally, she looked up in response. She sighed heavily, letting a heat cloud escape with her anxiety, and began.
"I once met someone who was the best friend in the world. A friend who I could tell everything, a friend who would come out as soon as I called, the most loyal and thoughtful friend in the world. A best friend.
I have not had a better friend since.
"But I was a bitch, I was fucking horrible. After he had been there for me all that time, after everything we had done, I took him for granted. I was a rude cunt to him, I ruined everything. No I'm not exaggerating, I did.
I know a thousand sorrys wouldn't change what has happened but I am so insanely sorry, this was one of the things I have regretted the most in my life."
She hesitated, standing in the centre of the oval. The memories recollected in her mind while the morning sunlight was creeping in. She recalled the days they spent listening to music in the shops, the nights they pulled through together on the phone while crying, the nights they spent lying together on the ground and making promises. She remembers the promise she broke, a promise for her own good that she had broken and astonishingly, had made him upset.
"Why? Why did he have to be so nice? I was such a fucking bitch"

I don't even know what to say hmmmm
Something has hit me in the past few weeks, I've felt myself changing and I'm not sure I'm ready for it.